I’ve been reading some wonderful writing, also cruising around evaluating various blogs, seeing strengths and weaknesses therein. I love how this medium has opened up to let so many people’s ideas, stories, information, inspiration flow. But I also feel critical of some of the gas, drivel, wasted words. I’m not clicking “like” unless I see depth and substance. Now instead of writing some decent posts from what I have inside, I’m accumulating unpublished drafts, going back to edit and re-edit, critiquing too much. I’ve always been prone to a cycle of what seems like inspiration, followed by a crash of self confidence. I feel such need of approval, to have someone get excited about my ideas and hold my hand while I take the next steps. And insecurity about my competence or knowledge. Try to talk myself out of that–after all, what’s the worse that can happen if I publish something poorly conceived or poorly expressed? Good Lord, I’m in my forties–can’t I let go of the need for approval at least enough to take risks in things that really matter to me?
Article: On Insecurity and Writing